A 28 -year-old Florida woman says her life has been destroyed by horrible allergies. But it’s not pollen, cats, or peanuts she’s allergic to; it’s her own sweat and tears.

“You don’t realise how much your body sweats until you become allergic to it, ” Julie Reid writes on her blog. “I would say it’s one step shy of being allergic to breathing or blinking.” Reid, a gymnastics and dance instructor, was diagnosed with a rare condition called cholinergic urticaria three years ago, ABC News reports.

People with the condition, which comes on for seemingly no reason, have overly sensitive skin that reacts to sweat, tears, and even hot showers. According to WFTS, the painfully itchy hives Reid breaks out in can last for days on end; her blog features graphic paintings.

Since developing cholinergic urticaria, Reid has lost her job and gained more than 100 pounds. She says she can’t go the store without get horrible looks due to her hives.

“I used to be so beautiful; now I look like a monster, ” she tells WFTS. “I just stay in bed and sobbing and cry.” Reid says the Florida heat stimulates going out during the day impossible anyway.

She says she’s depressed and scarcely bothers to get out of bed anymore. “It’s torture living like this, ” she says. The condition is known to disappear as spontaneously as it comes, though there is no timeline.

Doctors can provide antihistamines, but without a undertaking or health insurance, Reid has a hard time paying for appointments. She’s hoping her predicament will bring more attentionand hopefully a cureto cholinergic urticaria.

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This article originally appeared on Newser: What Life Is Like When You’re Allergic to Your Own Sweat

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